So often i am told to "just accept" and sometimes i wish that i "just could". i know what that feels like because i HAVE been there to experience it. But it doesn't "just happen" instead something else happens and like "doubt" that presents itself without warning; there it is!

There have been a few people in my life who sincerely want to know what drives this analytical examination which itself "just happens". Indeed, at least 4 p&t docs dug deep to uncover very interesting information that itself satisfied a kind of hunger that i have to know and better yet to understand my self, myself, and the world in and around me.

All of this chatter because i can't seem to find the place to ask a question about my name and password. If this problem didn't come up everyday more and more, then maybe it wouldn't present itself( if i can put it that way ) as a type of trigger that gets pulled everyday in places and ways that didn't exist some years ago when it was easy to find a button to press for help or if you make a phone call to a company you are not asked to find the closest match to why you are calling, press a coresponding number which takes you to another menu with a different set of questions,....and why has everyones menu's changed at the same time "so please listen to all of the options before selecting" Why???

Does anyone know another human being who absolutely LOVES this new system of doing business that has been forced on us ( "us" meaning everyone who has to deal with this ) ?

If you think that this is a rant you should hear my theory about how this practice of delaying a person from getting a simple answer is one of the roots of the out of control "cost of living" and in particular "health care" costs and practices.

Can't wait to hear what everyone thinks. i'm bracing myself for a ton of " Just you " replies. It won't be the first time i've been told that it's just me many times. Anyone else heard that? ;-)

Thanks for listening!

Brad

i, like you suffer from thinking too much, holding a conundrum up to the light like a diamond, trying to see every facet and understand how they came to be.

i think there are a lot of us out there brad, but were in the minority, somewhat marginalised, but in good company. Go to some sites like www.ted.com or http://fora.tv, you'll see lots of people asking and answering all sorts of questions that will be relevant to your thoughts, and many more that you had never even considered.

i think you may be similar to me, i feel that im on the verge of life, looking into a snake pit, wondering what went wrong, whose to blame, and where my place is.

but i often look at life this way, and it helps me...It's no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society" (Jiddu Krisnamurti)

take it easy brad and i look forward to seeing you in the room sometime....ozy